So, what better way to kick off a blog about my thoughts as an introvert trying to overcome her fears than addressing introversion itself. Besides, I feel like I should at least start with something more focused than the rambling that may make up some of the posts to come. So here it is, the good, the bad and the awkward of being my introverted self.
- First of all, I don't care what you say, when it comes to drama, the introverts have the right idea. Now throughout my freshman year I can say that I've witnessed drama over anything from Marching band rehearsals to I really hate to say it, Facebook statuses. Lucky for me, I can usually stay on the outside of these dramas, watching, laughing, possibly muttering a few sarcastic comments.
- Second, if you don't talk constantly about every single thing that is on your mind, generally people listen when you do talk. (this is assuming you talk loudly enough that they can actually hear you)
- Third, if I am able to open up to someone and talk freely with them, then I am an extremely loyal friend. I think that I value my friends more because I takes time for me to trust them.
- Small talk. That's really all I have to say. It was clearly designed by the devil to torture me.
- When I am around new people it's not that I don't want to talk to them, it's that I can't seem to find my voice. For some reason I just completely freeze up in front of new people and suddenly there is nothing but white noise in the normal conversation section of my brain.
- Last, people have this tendency to think that introverted people either hate them or are stuck up. I promise, it's not you, it's us. If I could think of something to say, I can assure you, I'd say it.
And.... The Awkward:
- Talking on the phone is pretty much impossible....just saying.
- Getting up the courage to talk to your crush only to have him say "You know you are really quiet" (Welcome to my high school career)
- Repeating yourself 10 times because your voice suddenly decided that volume is optional.
So there you have it. Introversion summed up into a three neat little lists for your convenience. I can feel your gratefulness.